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Chapter 9 | Temper Tantrum
“Hello sir. You have no security in this residence whatsoever. It was not difficult to cross the threshold without notice. Welch and I are in the process of remedying that situation. Mrs. Jones is shopping as we speak. She said water, wine, milk and Fruit Loops were not a balance diet and no way for a college student, let alone a grown man, to live. I told her you most likely dined out. She is very, and I do mean very, upset with you. After reminding her how things were when she joined us at Escala she seemed slightly mollified.” This must be “Shock the Shit Out of Me-ville” because once again I’m standing around with no fucking clue about what’s going on in front of me.
“Mr. Grey, may I speak freely?” All I can do is nod my head, although I do manage to close my fucking mouth this time. “There are a great many people who are concerned about you.” He actually has a worried look on his face. I haven’t given anyone reason to be alarmed, have I?
Not as far as I’m concerned, I mean, you contacted all of the staff, they knew their jobs were secure since Escala and Grey House Seattle both needed to be maintained so I don’t see the big deal either.
“Taylor, I’m not following you. Why is anyone concerned? All positions were maintained, no one has been put out of a job, except Reynolds and that was for a valid. Security hasn’t been necessary here. As for the house, you and Mrs. Jones vetted several qualified applicants. I just have to make a final decision.”
“While I appreciate your loyalty, I don’t understand your visit and I use the term loosely. I won’t get pissy this time, but don’t ever break into my house, wherever it is, again. Do you understand?” That’s a fucking hard limit dammit.
He nods then goes on to give me the update on all things Seattle. All of this “catching up” makes me feel like the weight of my world is on my shoulders again, in spades.
When he finally reaches the topic of Anastasia, I have to shut him down. “PAUSE! Taylor I appreciate the information, but I left all of this to you and Welch. As for Miss Steele, she knows my telephone number and she knows the extent of the situation. There is nothing more for us to discuss about her.” And that’s final.
However, in true Jason Taylor fashion he keeps going. I swear he’s like my mother. “Mr. Grey, permission to speak freely sir?” Oh shit.
“Taylor, just say whatever it is you have to say. I have a sneaking suspicion I’m in for an earful no matter what.” Since I heard Gail come in I yell, “Mrs. Jones, please join us.” Once she seats herself I lay down the ground rules for this conversation. “Neither of you have to ask for permission speak freely. When the talk gets to be too deep for me, the safeword is red. Get it?”
“Got it.” They say in unison and Gail nods her head for emphasis.
“Good, go on. Spill.” I sigh, sit back and resign myself to my fate.
Gail starts off, “Miss Steele came to Escala in tears. She said she tried to contact you on several occasions, but your phone always went straight to voicemail and then cut her off so that she couldn’t leave a message. She didn’t know if you were hurt, ill or if you simply were no longer speaking to her.”
“I was nervous because I hadn’t heard from you directly since you left for Taiwan. I knew at first you weren’t thrilled about having to go overseas. Jason and I…I mean Mr. Taylor…” we just said this was a heart to heart talk so all formalities are out of the window.
“Gail, if I may call you by your first name”, she nods her head and I continue, “we established this is a ‘Come to Jesus’ meeting so other than what’s common courtesy and respect, formalities aren’t necessary. Ok?” She nods in agreement then continues her story.
“When Jason and I got back from our vacation, you were nowhere to be seen. You called Jason and told him about Reynolds and when your call was done, Jason went ballistic and I began to worry.” She tries to blink away her tears, but ends up having to dab her eyes to stop them from flowing down her cheeks. Jason puts a comforting arm around her shoulder and she steadies her breathing enough to go on.
“Your parents, brother and sister called several times before you contacted them. Afterwards, your father began speaking with Jason on a regular basis. Ros only had information pertaining to GEH and I have no interest in that”, she is beginning to feel more comfortable with this conversation, she is speaking about her own feelings.
I know you’re not shrinking someone?
Besides business, what other field do I know? Degree or not, my crazy ass can tell you about psychology and psychiatry for that matter.
“…finally, Ana came to Escala. She told me about your few chats before you left for Taiwan and since you’ve been overseas. Jason told me about your move here and…well…I couldn’t stay away any longer. I understand your separation of personal and professional relationships and I respect that. Mr. Grey, I’ve been worried about you and how you were dealing with your separation from Miss Steele. Whether it’s my place or not, I still worry. All I can do is not tell you.” See what you did? You made a grown woman who has absolutely no biological or romantic involvement with you worry like hell.
What is today’s date? I have to mark this one off on the calendar as “Astound Grey Day”. What have these people been thinking about? Fuck. I went to work. I always go to work. I work constantly and no one gives it a second thought, but let me step off US soil and all of a sudden emotions run high.
I’m totally out of my comfort zone. I look to Jason and mouth the word ‘red’ so that he can take care of Gail. I let her know she’s welcome to stay or she can finish the interview process for the applicants she approved, the choice is hers. “Gail, Jason, please don’t be offended. I didn’t expect either of you to pick up and relocate to parts unknown at a moments notice. I thought it was best to undertake this endeavor alone.”
“I sent you and Taylor on vacation because you deserve that and so much more for putting up with me and my shit on a continual basis. My actions may be unconventional, but they come from a good place.” She nods again then goes to the kitchen.
At this point I decide to ask, “Gail, do you want to stay here?” Her expression softens but the tears are still flowing down her cheeks.
“Mr. Grey, I have no problem remaining here with you. However, my home is with Jason, I’m certain you know that. If Jason is prepared to move to this lovely area then I am as well. My sister is a big girl. She’ll be fine without me tagging along on the weekends”, with that she gives me a little wink and turns to work on dinner.
“Taylor, we can continue this discussion here or in my study, which ever you choose. However, I’ve been in these running shorts and t-shirt so long they are dry and I need to take a shower.” I’m not really prepared for all of this talking. I wanted to sit around and eat my leftovers before delving into the facts and figures Ros faxed over to me earlier today.
Jason laughs at me and says, “Actually I would like a tour or to wander around a bit. Go take your shower and we can pick up where we left off after we eat. “
“Ok Taylor, make yourself at home. I suggest you take your belongings to the third floor. It’s a replica of your living area at Escala. If not, there are guest rooms on the second floor that are available to you. The elevator is on the left of the foyer. My room is here on the first floor.” He nods and we part ways.
I turn on the shower to as hot as I can stand it and let the steam fill the room. As the water falls over me I think about Ana. She’s been trying to contact me? Why haven’t I received her calls? I haven’t missed calls from Ros or Andrea or the staff at the new office. I don’t remember seeing any missed calls on my phone and the few texts I have were from Ros. I don’t really talk with anyone else. Why didn’t Ana send me an email? My address hasn’t changed. This is strange.
Once I’m out of the shower, dried off and dressed I head out toward the kitchen. Mrs. Jones stops in her tracks, blinks a few times and stares at me with her mouth wide open then turns to look at Jason who seems equally taken aback.
“What? What did I miss?” I don’t understand the looks I am getting.
“Well…um…Mr. Grey, it is just…I am used to seeing you in your white linen shirt and black jeans. This is a change for you.” Am I correct? Is she blushing?
I’ve dressed like this since I arrived in Townsville. The new setting seemed to warrant a lot of changes for me. My attire was one of those things. I no longer don my linen shirt and jeans. Various color athletic fit t-shirts or a wife-beater with plan blue jeans, for out in public, or my bare chest and shorts for around the house. Since I have house guests, I thought the bare chest and shorts weren’t appropriate.
House guests huh? These good people have walked in on you fucking a woman’s mouth in the kitchen, heard women counting out lashes and calling you ‘Sir’ and ‘Master’, if you saw fit. Mrs. Jones in particular has cleaned come stains from various inanimate objects throughout Escala and NOW you get bashful. REALLY GREY? Get fucking real.
No one asked you so fuck off.
Fucking off ‘Sir’…hee, hee,hee
“Just a small change Gail, nothing to worry about. I’m still the same overbearing, pompous, jackass I’ve always been, but I’m trying to get a grip on that too.” I shrug my shoulders. Taylor, thankfully, clears his throat then actually glares at Gail. Apparently she likes what she sees. Now it is my turn to hide a smile.
“Oh yes, dinner. Cesar Salad with Red Wine Vinaigrette, broiled steak, medium-well and baked potato Mr. Grey?” She seems a little flustered. This is too much fun.
I was going to flash her my mega-watt smile, but I won’t do that to Taylor. I’d be pissed if someone did that to me so I think better of it, “That is wonderful Gail, it’ll be good to eat real food again.”
I sit down to a Gail Jones masterpiece. The best meal I’ve had since I left for Taiwan. I think about everything I left behind and what I have achieved since being away from Seattle. Part of me is happy I left and part of me does miss home.
All of this must be written on my face because Gail says, “We all miss you Mr. Grey and I’m not just saying that. You have no idea how we feel about you because of the ‘Separation of Church and State’. It’s hard to get close to you, but once we do you prove to be a wonderful person.” She pats my hand and leaves Taylor and I to talk.
I look at Taylor for a clue of what Gail’s statement was about, but all he tells me is “She is right.” I nod my head even though I do not truly understand all the fuss.
Finally I ask Taylor, “Do you want to finish our exchange here or in my office?”
“Where ever you feel most comfortable sir.” I smile at the word ‘comfortable’. Comfort has never really mattered to me, business was business and personal was off limits. Things have definitely changed.
“Here is fine then.” I take our plates to the sink, rinse them and put them in the dishwasher. When I turn around, Jason has an all out, full-blown smile on his face.
“I know, I know, I don’t have anyone to clean up after me so I went back to basics. The kitchen came with the place. Since the world knows I can’t cook it could easily have been another bedroom as far as I’m concerned. I can run the dishwasher, do my laundry and pick up after myself like a good little boy. My mommy would be proud.” At that statement, the smile falls from his face.
In horror I immediately ask, “Is something wrong with my mother? Please tell me she is alright.” I’ll be on the first thing heading stateside if she’s not well.
I talk with my dad more regularly now, but he’s always in his office in the city so he can blow up at me without fear of my mother walking in on him. My ears start to bleed every time I see his number on the Caller ID. The only thing he does anymore is chew me out. It’s the ‘Harvard Drop-out’ scene over and over and over again.
“Mrs. Grey is fine sir. She misses you, that is all.” I let out a sigh of relief and nod my head.
“Would you like a lager?” Taylor nods so I grab a couple Townsville Bitters hen lead the way to the living room that over looks Rowes Bay.
“What else is going on Taylor? I’ve spoken with you, my father, Ros and various people here using the same cellphone with no problems. Not to mention my email address has not changed so what’s the issue with Anastasia trying to contact me?”
“We believe someone has tampered with Miss Steele’s phone and computer.” WHAT?!
The look on my face must say it all.
“She received a text and an email containing photos of you and a young woman. The text was sent from an unidentified number, while the email was from a generic marketing company that sends out random announcements and coupons. Barney says her email address could have been sold to any number of marketers simply from making an online purchase. He gave her cellphone and laptop a once over and found spyware that could monitor her online movements and a zombie virus, which can be used to perform malicious tasks under remote direction, including but not limited to denial of service attacks. Her emails were not reaching you due to the virus’ effects on her computer.”
“She is able to access her email from her BlackBerry as well. Since BlackBerry maintains there is no such thing as a BB virus Barney is still looking at the phone. During his research, Barney found articles to the contrary where the phone’s calling ability was affected in part or in full. For now, we are working with the premise that both hardware items were attacked and prevented her from contacting you.”
There is only one person on Earth who would bother to keep Ana and I apart. Taylor simply nods his head before we say in unison, “Elena Lincoln.”
C’mon, c’om…Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring… “Grey. Leave a message.” Beep. Buzzz…
WHAT THE FUCK! How the hell am I supposed to communicate with him if my calls keep going to voicemail? And why the fuck can’t I leave a damn message? What the fuck is he playing at?
“Hey Steele, Mia and I are going to the Zig Zag for a few drinks. wanna join us?” I guess alls well in the land of Katherine Kavanaugh
“Kate, I have a throbbing headache and booze is not going to help me. You two enjoy yourselves.”
She sighs, “Steele, you cannot mope over…” OH NO! NOT THIS TIME!
“KATE STOP! Stop right there. I CAN mope and I WILL mope. The last time I looked in the mirror you were not there. I appreciate you wanting to look out for me and wanting me to be happy, but I AM NOT HAPPY! Do you understand that Kate? No amount of Hagen Das, Chinese take-out, pizza or booze is going to make me happy.”
“All I am trying to do is…” She has the nerve to sound defensive.
“Kate, I miss Christian. I want to be with Christian.”
“I do not see what it is about him. How can you stand him Steele? He is so contro…” REALLY?
“You mean like you are?” I hear her gasp.
“Yeah Kate. Where are you going to sleep tonight? Where is Elliott? When is the last time you spoke with him, huh Kate?” Silence.
“That is what I thought. Christian is not here to defend himself against you and your tirade. And for the record, what the fuck has he done to cause you to hate him? Huh? What is that all about?” Silence.
“I am waiting.” Still nothing.
Let’s test the waters, shall we?
Be my guest.
“Kate, did I tell you Christian bought SIP and shortly afterward I was made editor?” I cannot remember if I told her all about it or not. That is an abridged version of the whole mess, but it is the salient information.
Another gasp, “How dare he try to buy you?” Huh? “What, does he think you can’t do it on your own? Why does he want to keep you under his thumb Ana? This is what I mean, why does he want to control your every move?”
“Do you think I should turn it down, move on to another publisher?” Be careful Kavanaugh.
“Has his interference hurt your reputation there?” The ‘R’ word, “I know you are a hard worker Ana and your reputation means everything to you. Has he damaged that with this asinine stunt?”
I grit my teeth and say, “Well, at the last staff meeting the other editors were looking at me funny, but no one came out and said anything.” I know for a fact a few of them wanted to. Even Roach seemed disappointed that my HR scores were high enough to allow me to stay.
“If it were me, I’d leave Steele. I mean, I’m sure your boss would give you a good recommendation for wherever you decided to go, but you know we both worked so hard it’s a shame he couldn’t leave well enough alone so you could make it on your own.”
“You mean like you did Kate?” Silence.
“Kate…Kate are you still there? Do you mean like your getting an internship at your father’s company?” Crickets.
“That is what I thought. Kavanaugh, lets put it like this. I love you, think the world of you, but this is my life not yours. You have your man and I am going to have mine. A friend will listen when I need them to, hand me a tissue when I need it or buy me a box of the damn things when I run out, but a friend is not going to tear down my confidence or self-est…”
“ANA! I ‘ve NEVER done that to you. How could you think that? This is what I mean. That self-righteous, salacious, asshole is fucking with your head. You don’t even know who your true friend is.” NOW DO YOU FUCKING BELIEVE ME?
“Kate, I have to go.” I disconnect the call.
I know. You are right about her. I never thought of Kate as a jealous person, but then…you learn something new everyday huh?
First he says he loves me then I see him with some other woman, what is the damn deal?
WHOA…WHOA…WHOA! Down Steele…down girl.
First of all you need an attitude change. Second of all the man is F…I…N…E…FINE, no one can blame a woman for looking or even DROOLING at him. You’re the one who gets her tights in a twist when that happens. Third, YOU told the man “yes” THEN you turned around and told the man to “wait” and you practically bit his head off each time he tried to address the situation. So WHO THE FUCK is being unreasonable here? Wait for it…wait for it…BUZZ times up. Still don’t know the answer? Here, let me help…YOU! YOU ARE BEING UNREASONABLE, CHILDISH and now you have the nerve be JEALOUS?
I told you and told you and I told you again to stop being an ass. I told you to make sure you had your priorities straight and what did you do Miss High and Mighty? You first sent the man around Seattle to attend any and all obligatory events stag, then you let him go to Taiwan, stag and as article after article came out you did and/or said nothing to him. What the fuck gives you the right to utter a sound now?
Do you need assistance recalling the conversation, here let me help you:
NO! I do not need to go back in time I was there. I remember scripture and verse what I said to Christian and what he said to me.
Good. There’s a reminder you do need to hear.
What the fuck could that be?
“…I want to prepare you for what the world takes seriously. I do not want this to affect your time away from me. I do not want you to question my love or fidelity to you no matter what the situation between us. My heart is always in your hands baby. I love you.”
This is not about money. This is not about your feelings for him or his feelings for you. This is about your insecurities and you misguided sense of independence. What does his love have to do with your independence?
Wrong answer. He doesn’t care about what anyone else thinks. He cares about and loves you Steele, that’s it, that’s all there is to it. You can’t ask him for anymore. You can’t hold your insecurities against him anymore than he can hold his insecurities against you. You projected your fear about a situation no one can control on the man you claim to love.
Does the world take you seriously yet?
I do not know. I mean, I go to work everyday and I carry my share of the load, so I guess I am taken seriously.
I understand you’ve shown yourself to be a dependable worker, but that’s not what I asked you. I asked you if ‘the world’ takes you seriously yet?
HOW THE FUCK DO I KNOW? I have not taken a before and after poll.
How do you intend to gauge the world’s view of Anastasia Rose Steele then?
I did not think about it that way.
WHAT? WHAT WAS THAT? I DIDN’T CATCH THAT LAST SENTENCE. REPEAT THAT!
I SAID…I DID NOT TAKE INTO ACCOUNT HOW TO GAGUE WORLD OPINION OF ME! DAMMIT!
Anastasia, what world are you even talking about? Do you know?
I want my co-workers to take me seriously, I want my boss to take me seriously, if I get ahead in my field I want every little step to be MY win not a hand-off because someone knows Christian is part of my life.
So what world are you talking about?
ARE YOU STUPID OR SOMETHING? I JUST TOLD YOU WHAT WORLD! MY CO-WORKERS, KATE, JOSE, MY DAD, MY MOM! I WANT THEM TO TAKE ME SERIOUSLY!
Where are your co-workers right now? Where are Kate, Jose, your dad and mom right now?
I have no idea and at this very second I do not give a fuck.
Why don’t you know where they are?
I am no one’s babysitter. My co-workers have lives of their own. Kate is at the Zig Zag with Mia. Jose and my mom are each somewhere in the world, I do not know where exactly. My dad is at home in Montesano. What does this have to do with my being taken seriously?
It has everything to do with it. Your co-workers have lives of their own. They’re not thinking about you sweetie. They know you come to work on time and fulfill your assigned tasks. Kate had her own shit-soup to sip on. She doesn’t even work in your field, has no idea what you do for a living unless you tell her and between you, me and the lamp-post does she even give a fuck? I think not. What has she done to deserve to have that kind of power in your life? Please explain that to me.
Kate graduated from college then proceeded to “inherit” an internship in her father’s company. You see she doesn’t mind what anyone has to say about that? Does she care what you have to say about it? No, because that’s Kate and she knows you’d never judge her. How does she know that? You never have. Why do you feel the need for her to accept you as anything other than her friend?
I wish you would see Kate for what she is. You went to school together and she bullied you the entire time. Her nasty attitude finally brought some good into your life that’s all. She needs to worry about her own man before she looses him and has no one but herself to blame. Although I’m sure she’ll come up with a way to pin it on Christian.
Your relationship with Grey is no more her business than her relationship with Elliott is yours. The two of you have got to grow the fuck up.
Jose, well…Jose has wanted to fuck you for ages. How you do or don’t feel about him is of no consequence. How Jose feels has remained the same whether you reciprocated those feelings or not. Is Grey a jealous ass? Yes. Does he have a valid reason to dislike Jose Rodriguez? Yes, I believe so. Do you have the right to expect Grey to simply forget what he saw that night outside of the bar? No, I don’t believe you have the right to expect that from him. You had difficulty watching him handle Leah when she had you at gunpoint and you still manage to harp on it by questioning his feelings for you. How do you think that makes him feel? Why is it you can walk away scot-free and Grey is left holding some kind of blame or is ‘guilty of crossing some imaginary line? Why is he always the bad guy’?
I don’t know what else to tell you except you need to get your priorities straight. Seeing him in a picture with another woman isn’t reason enough to contact him. Think about it and I mean really think. Let’s go to sleep, I’m tired and we have to be at work early tomorrow. I’d hate for ‘the world’ to see you slipping.
HA! Is that the best you’ve got? Grey deserves better than the way you’ve treated him and you know it. You can lie to someone, but not to yourself. Now, good night John Boy
As we go into SIP I ask Sawyer, “Have you heard from Christian?” Sawyer looks at me as if I asked him to explain the meaning of life.
“No Miss Steele”, he shakes his head for emphasis, “I am assigned to protect you. I have no knowledge of Mr. Grey’s whereabouts.” We step to the far side of the Reception area so Claire is out of earshot. I remember Christian saying Sawyer was head of security while Taylor was away, so he must know something. “Aren’t you currently head of security?”
His eyes widen and I raise an eyebrow. He did not think I knew this little tidbit of information. See caught you. At least I thought I had until he tells me, “I was head of security while Mr. Taylor was on vacation, but he returned a while ago. Anyway, I never spoke with Mr. Grey. I spoke with Reynolds once or twice before Mr. Grey fired him and…” I did not let him finish.
“Mr. Grey fired Reynolds?” I hiss as quietly as I can. I do not remember being told this. I remember Christian took him along to Taiwan because Taylor was on vacation and Ryan was assigned to Grey House and Escala. What the fuck is going on here?
“Sawyer, I need to get to my office, but you and I need to have a heart to heart about what has been going on. I am being left out of the loop.”
Yes now…RIGHT NOW!
What the fuck do you want?
What the fuck makes you think you’re entitled to know about security for Grey? Thought as long as you were free to roam about wherever you choose all was right in ‘the world’?
Ok, look. I am going to tell you just like I told Kate. I miss Christian. I want to be with Christian. I guess that means I am going to have to grow a set and fight with him tooth and nail when I feel like he is overstepping some imaginary line. Until I get the opportunity to speak with him then I want to know WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON! Do I make myself clear?
WOO HOO…OH SHIT! CRYSTAL!
What the fuck is so funny?
You are. Keep in mind, anything worth having is worth fighting for. SWAK! No, get to work.
Sawyer takes a deep breath before telling me, “Miss Steele, with all due respect, the actions of Mr. Grey’s security detail are none of your concern. I am not privy to that level of information therefore I do not make inquiries about it. I know Taylor is back from his vacation. He is the formal Head of Security. I recommend you speak with him concerning Mr. Grey.” The look on his face is stern. I nod, turn and proceed to my office.
Before I walk away I tell Sawyer, “Then speak with Taylor is what I will do. Thank you Sawyer.”
After work is finally over, I practically sprint to the front door. “Sawyer, I need you to take me to Escala. I need to speak with Taylor.”
“Miss Steele, Mr. Taylor is probably still at Grey House right now. I can call him and we can make an appointment for you to…”
“AN APPOINTMENT! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ABOUT? Let me tell you something Mr. Sawyer, Christian may not be in the United States, but until he tells me in his own voice to fuck off, not you, not Taylor not Kate, NO ONE is going to stop me from communicating with or seeing Christian Trevelyn-Grey. Do you fucking understand me?!” I have been pissed all day and his statement was the last straw. I am tired of this shit.
Everyone, and I do mean everyone, in the lobby stopped to listen to my none-too-quite episode, but you know what? I…do…not…care. I take a step back allowing Sawyer to lead the way to the door so we can get this horse and pony show underway.
Sawyer is silent all the way to Escala. I do not know if he calls to warn Taylor that I am on my way or not. If I were Sawyer, I would. I want answers. What the fuck is going on? Who the fuck is the bimbo? Why can’t I get in touch with Christian?
You know you are being a…
YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP TOO! I have had enough of your mouth. I was wrong to think anyone’s opinion mattered other than my own and Christian’s. OK? I WAS WRONG!
I have told Christian so many times that I love him and I will never leave him. This is the second time I have broken that promise. He deserves better than for me to be wishy-washy about our relationship. Not just for general human respect, but because he has had enough shit go on in his life. Now, I am adding to that.
Why now? How much did the woman in the photo affect my decision? I would be lying if I said this has nothing to do with her. I know how handsome, caring and fun Christian is. I know any woman in her RIGHT MIND would be a fool to walk away from a man who loves her. Let alone one who is willing to put up with my brand of bullshit.
From what I can tell of the photograph, she looks like me and he looked star struck. He is mine. He will always be mine. He said so himself before he left, “…Quite the contrary my love. I want to prepare you for what the world takes seriously. I do not want this to affect your time away from me. I do not want you to question my love or fidelity to you no matter what the situation between us. My heart is always in your hands baby. I love you.”
We pull into the garage at Escala and I barely wait for the car to stop moving before I jump out and race to the elevator, with Sawyer on my heels. I punch in the code but nothing happens. Oh shit.
I look up at Sawyer and he tells me, “The codes were changed because Reynolds is no longer part of the Security Team; it had nothing to do with you Miss Steele. We cannot risk him bearing a grudge against Mr. Grey and getting back into the apartment. The access codes here and at Grey House have been changed.” I nod my head as we enter the elevator. It makes sense. I cannot see Reynolds bearing a grudge, but…STOP IT! It’s not your decision to make. Isn’t that what you tell Grey all of the time? Well this is about his home and his responsibilities to Gail, Taylor, Ryan and Sawyer as well. They live here even if you and he don’t, so BUTT OUT!
I stand corrected.
We enter the Great Room and no one is there. I walk over to the breakfast bar and see Gail looking through the cupboards with her back to me. “Hi Gail.”
I tried not to startle her but it did not work. “AH!” She puts her hand to her chest and tries to catch her breath. “Hello Miss Steele. Oh, my…I wasn’t expecting anyone. How are you dear?” Once her breathing calms down her eyes soften. She looks at me like I am her long lost child. She comes around the breakfast bar and gives me a good, hard hug.
I manage not to cry and when we break apart I ask, “Have you or Taylor heard from Christian? Do you know how he is or where he is? I have been trying to reach him, but he is not taking my calls and my emails keep bouncing back to me.” I take a deep breath then continue, “He has someone else doesn’t he?”
Gail takes me in her arms and rocks me side to side. “Oh dear, I don’t know Ana, but when Jason gets home we’ll get him to tell us everything he knows; alright?” I nod my head without leaving her embrace. “You go and lie down and I’ll make you some tea and put together something for you to eat, ok?” Again I nod my head. “Good. I’ll bring you your tea in a few moments.”
I slowly walk to Christian’s bedroom. It is perfect. Just as it always is when we get home from work. I go into his closet and see where all of my clothes are gone. I took them with me when I told him I needed space. What confuses me is, all of his clothes are still in his closet. He did not take anything with him? The first thing that catches my eye is his grey tie; our favorite tie.
As I reach for it Gail appears behind me and clears her throat. “He didn’t take anything with him. He usually has a wardrobe available, but then he typically only goes as far as New York. I imagine he purchased what he needed when he reached Asia. These things will be here for when he returns. I am making chicken potpie; it’ll take a little while to bake. You freshen up and rest. I’ll call you when it’s done. I placed a cup of water and a Twining’s, English Breakfast Tea bag on the table beside the bed.” She pats my shoulder then quietly leaves the room.
I cannot lie down here. It feels wrong to be here when Christian is not. I can smell his scent throughout the room and I see the picture of him and that woman in my minds eye. What am I going to do?
“Taylor what does this mean? How can a cellphone get a virus and how can any of that stop me from getting in touch with Christian?” I am confused and frustrated at all of this technology mumbo-jumbo.
“Miss Steele, I am telling you what Barney found when he remoted into your computer and the results of his overview of your phone. Here, take this BlackBerry. It is brand new with a different phone number, which is here. I recommend you only give it to your parents until we can resolve this issue. Do you have a landline at home?”
I look at him puzzled. Doesn’t everyone have a home phone? “Yes, but we do not really use it.”
“Good, do not use it until I give you clearance to do so.” Huh?
“Taylor is this all really necessary?” I mean come on dude.
I do not know what I said, but whatever it was, I pissed him off because he glares directly into my eyes and asks, “Miss Steele, do you want to see him again?”
He has got you there. I nod without saying a word.
“That is what I thought. Follow my instructions to the letter. Gail and I are going to Australia. I will update him on what is going on here. Please keep Sawyer close to you. If you like, you are more than welcome to stay here at Escala.” I shake my head no, that is too much to ask, besides, I cannot stand to be here without Christian.
“That will not be necessary Taylor, but if I change my mind, would it be alright to come back?”
“Of course it is alright, anytime, no matter what. Now if you will excuse me, I have things I need to do.” He gives me a quick nod and a pat on my shoulder before going into his office.
I look at Gail who asks, “Ana, are you certain you don’t want to stay tonight? You’re already here. I’m sure Jason and I won’t be leaving immediately. How about it?” I know she worries about me and I miss her terribly, but I just can’t.
“Thank you, but no Gail. I really can’t stay here without Christian. You both travel safe.” I give Gail a final hug before we say goodbye.
“Good night John Boy” closing dialogue from the television series The Waltons (1972-1981)